So you've heard the phrase “You can’t have your cake and eat it too”

Many people have their own opinions about this saying but to me this means you can’t keep your cake looking as if no one has taken a bite out of it and also eat it. People always argue the meaning of this because they say what’s the point in having cake if you can’t eat it. Well that’s going to be my point here exactly!!! A lot of people walk around claiming to be Christian. They believe Jesus Christ died for them, they believe in going to church and they may even be involved in the church but some of these people are claiming to be something they are not. I know harsh right? Well someone has to say it!! Let me first start by saying being a Christian does not mean doing what you want and at night laying down your head saying the same rehearsed prayer you have since you were 5 years old. Being a Christian doesn’t mean living holy on Sunday and the rest of the week being of the world. Being a Christian doesn’t mean only praying when the mortgage is due or the bill collectors are calling. Don’t say you’re something if you’re not walking it out if you say it people better recognize the God in you baby!!

I’ve been here. I would say one thing but deep down believe another. I never walked away from God but there was a point in my life where I was going through the motions. Life wasn’t looking so great, my heart always felt empty and sad and friends were all walking away and in the process of walking they were stabbing me in the back. Friends who claimed to be Christians. I remember thinking what’s the point of being a Christian if we only act Christian for 3 hours on Sunday??? My desire for God was slowly slipping away, my desire to get in his word and read and breathe life was slowly slipping away. I felt like God didn’t hear me. I felt like maybe I messed up to much for God to ever hear me or maybe I had to do something to earn back his love and trust. I remember one night just crying out to God asking him why my life was going the way it was? Why was another person walking out of my life? Why would he put them in my life for them just to walk away? Why wasn’t he even hearing me!!! I was so mad, I was confused but most of all, I was broken. That night God spoke to me and he said “unplug your ears and you’ll hear me” I remember thinking what does that mean I’m not plugging my ears God I’m doing the opposite that’s why I’m here, that’s why I’m asking you why u won’t answer me!!! He said it again “unplug your ears and you’ll hear me” So I was like ok God why am I plugging my ears (I probably had some sarcasm in my voice) He said “your plugging your ears because it’s your safety mechanism. You have been hurt by the things people have said about you, the things they didn’t say or the empty promises that you were told.” I still didn’t understand…if that was the reason why would I “plug my ears” he said "the reason why I did this was “because those words went into your ears and pierced your heart. The words that were said you “HEARD” those things hurt you because they broke your heart so it was easier for you to shut your ears and close out people so they couldn’t hurt you, but in the long run you have closed me out too” WOW talk about being put in your place in a loving way lol…I was seeing God as I saw the people who walked away and didn’t listen to what I had to say. I was scared of being let down so putting walls up seemed like a great plan!!! This night changed my life and perception of God completely!!! Since then I have realized that he will speak to me in different ways every time. It may be through the preacher on Sunday, the kids in the Sunday school classes or a cashier who is just doing her job. God will use whatever he wants to speak to us!!! It’s the still small voice on the inside of us (others seem to get it mixed up with their “6^th) sense little do they know its Jesus speaking to their heartsJ)

Something else as Christians we MUST do is get in the word!!! That would’ve cleared up a lot of questions I was having!!! For one I would’ve been reminded that in his word it says “I will never leave you or forsake you” Hebrews 13:5-6 we have the word available to us. God has given us the answers to all the questions we have but sometimes we are simply too lazy to open the book or we don’t really want to know the answers. I know I was like that once. I knew what God would say and I wasn’t ready to listen and change so not getting in the word helped me not be reminded of right from wrong. We want the answer but don’t want to do the work. We would rather someone tell us how we should handle a situation or even do it for us. As the body of Christ we have the keys to the kingdom (Matt. 16:19) in our hands and we take it for granted sometimes. We are in a battle and we cannot fight without the word!! It’s sharper than a two edged sword (Hebrews 4:12)

Every question we have is waiting for us to discover the answer. To discover these answers we must get in the word and digest every little thing so that when these questions and doubts try to come in we can say NO MY GOD WILL NEVER LEAVE ME, MY GOD WILL NEVER PLACE MORE ON ME THAN I CAN HANDLE, MY GOD IS FAITHFUL, MY GOD IS CLOSE TO THE BROKENHEARTED, MY GOD IS!!!