Im letting go

My heart hurts tonight. I'm having to let go of some things and people who I have held near to my heart and had a great love for. If I was to put into words why my heart hurt I couldn't do that its an unexplainable feeling. I feel like I wasted my time. I forgive but its just hard to forget. How does someone forgive and forget??? I never understood that. I want to forget because when I remember it, It makes me sad and angry and then this huge snowball effect of emotions starts tumbling down and before you know it your talking to Ben & Jerry. I'm taking a giant leap of faith and while taking this leap I'm wondering how do I fully let go??? Why do I have to let go??? Am I supposed to let go??? I don't know the answers and some of them not sure I'm ready to know the answers but for me to heal and just move forward I have to let go. I hate being wrong. Im just stubborn in that way, I don't like feeling like I was not important or was a toy. I wish we could erase memories because it wouldnt hurt as bad but we cant and so now we have to learn to give it God and leave it when we take it to him. I also like feeling like I have control over a situation and if its going bad I wanna be able to fix it but this time my hands are up I'm tired of trying to fix things. Things I have no control over. So not a very long post but had to get out how I was feeling. I'm learning to let go and move on. Doesn't matter who is wrong. Why they did it or why they didnt do something. Its over.

My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge

Like an acrobat
There’s no turning back

Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone

Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me
I’m not afraid

Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
Feels like I’m falling and this is the life for me

Song Words by Artist / Band : Francesca Battistelli
Song Lyrics Title : I’m Letting Go
Taken from Album : My Paper Heart

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6 comments:

B_Stewart82 said...

Stand tall and hold steady believing you are being true to yourself and all will be well.

Kayla said...

Thank you :)

Jessica said...

Hehe. I am smiling to myself and in my heart knowing that God is going to work everything out for you! I have no doubt about it. When we let go of things, God opens up so many doors for us that we couldn't even begin to imagine! It's a beautiful thing. Letting go of memories, possessions, or anything that was close to us hurts- but God always has something bigger and even more wondrous waiting for us on the other side of things <3 I wish you the very best Kayla! :D Stay strong.

Living, Loving @ Laughing said...

Wow you are speaking so much truth, painfully so, it is all about relationship with Jesus Christ..... I thank God for the young voices that are he's raising up in this gerneration!..Be blessed ! thanks for the follow too.

Anonymous said...

Kayla, thank you for following my blog, its refreshing to know that there are strong Christians such as you around. Stay strong in God and your in my prayers.

Cheryl Lynn Griffin

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